Silly First Time Mom Stuff

Sadie got her first 2 pieces of mail today :o) one was for her ultrasound appointment confirmation, and one was her social security card. I have been sitting here for the last 20 minutes practicing writing her name in cursive so it looks good when I sign it! She's going to have this thing until she gets married and changes her name, it needs to look good!

Matthew took Sadie out to dinner with his family (I stayed home - not feeling great). I may have teared up a bit after they left. I miss my girl (and my husband).

I'm watching Say Yes To The Dress because Friday is Bride Day. I'm totally excited for when Sadie wants to watch these shows with me!

While breastfeeding was incredibly difficult (this deserves a post of its own) after we got home from the hospital, I'm so glad I didn't give up on it. I love nursing that sweet little girl - even at 3am.

Sadie sometimes giggles in her sleep. It's the cutest thing ever. 

I leave you with this. I love that little face!!! 

Time flies

How is my sweet girl already 2 weeks old?! I don't understand how time could possibly be going so fast! Although we don't do much during the day, the hours fly by and now the days and weeks are too. :o(

Sadie is 2 weeks old today and I fall more in love every minute I spend with her. I love her sweet little face and I can't stop kissing those soft little cheeks!!

Little Miss likes sleeping on daddy's chest in the recliner and listening to him play the piano (we can't wait for him to learn more kid songs)! She loves sleeping with her hands over her face and going for car rides. She's never phased by loud noises like someone knocking on the door, Teddy's bark, or the hair dryer- but sometimes startles when she makes noises while sucking on her hands :) She likes being rocked in the glider. Although she's not a fan of her sponge baths she absolutely loves having her hair washed (just like mommy)! She very rarely cries and we can pretty easily figure out what's wrong if she is crying.

Sadie's 1 Week Picture!

I technically should have posted this on Monday, but since I hadn't posted her birth story yet I figured I should probably wait!

We may have to change some things around for her weekly/monthly pictures because I'm not sure I love this. I mean she obviously makes the picture but I don't know about the chalkboard. I had originally thought I would do this upstairs in her glider but I was in a hurry so I thought this will have to do for Monday's picture!

Here's another picture I just can't resist sharing right now.

I love how she's sleeping with her arms above her head.

And of course, I can't stop sharing pics of the poodle.

After a much needed hair cut! <3

So, there's this...

My sweet Sadie Marie arrived on Monday November 4th, 2013 at 11:38 am. She weighed in at 7 pounds 12 ounces of pure perfection. I can't even tell you how in love I am with this girl. How could something I created ever be so perfect?!

Sadie's Birth Story:

On Sunday 11/3 we went to my sister-in-law's house for a birthday dinner honoring my brother-in-law. I felt kind of weird all day. Similar to how I was feeling the previous Sunday when I was nauseous and dizzy off and on all day. By dinner time I was feeling fine though and we had a great time with our family! We got home and rolled into bed (literally). I, being 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant, was up and down many times to use the bathroom as always. I got up probably just a few minutes before 2am Monday morning to use the bathroom, came back to bed, laid down feeling very slight cramps. A few minutes later I felt like I was having stomach cramps that would indicate another trip to the bathroom was coming. I got up, grabbed my phone and headed back to the bathroom.

Once in the bathroom I immediately started bleeding. Panicking, I called for my husband who was snoring away in the bedroom, not hearing me yell for him!! I obviously had to take matters into my own hands so I called the doctor's office, left a message and waited for my call back. In the mean time I was debating who I could call/text about this issue because although I wasn't having contractions, I was pretty sure that red blood that late in pregnancy just wasn't good.

I finally was able to yell loud enough to my husband that I was thinking it was baby time. He said, "What? Now?" Yes! Now!! I got a call  back from the on call doctor and explained to her that I was bleeding red blood and that I wasn't sure why. She basically told me that she didn't really care what color it was (haha) and that we needed to come into L&D, now! I got dressed, made sure Matthew was fully awake, he got dressed, and then asked, "Should I put my contacts in?" Umm. I don't really care, just hurry and make a decision so we can leave! I texted my mom because we were supposed to take Teddy over to her house when the time came. She didn't want us to bring him over so late so we had to leave him at home. That broke my heart. He's never been home alone during the night before.

We grabbed our bags, grabbed the car seat and headed out the door. I feel like it took forever to get to the hospital. From the time I got the call back from the on call at 2:14 until the time we got to triage in L&D 45 minutes had passed! When we got into a triage room our nurse informed us that this was probably nothing, it was probably just my "bloody show" and that some women bleed more than others during that time frame. I was thinking she was crazy because she didn't actually see how much blood there was. We were kind of bummed that she was saying this probably wasn't it.

We waited for the doctor who came in rather quickly and performed her exam. She said I was at a 2cm and she wanted to check to make sure my water didn't break. She also mentioned that some women can have several bags of water and that one of them may have been broken just based on what she was seeing. I had no idea you could have more than one bag of fluid. She said that even if one of the bags broke we'd be staying because the risk for infection still goes up, even if the bag that broke isn't the one containing the baby (or something like that). She left and came back about 2 minutes later and said we're staying!! Oh my gosh, we're really having a baby!?!

They got us into a L&D room and said that there's a chance we'd have a baby by dinner time, but because I was only at 2cm, not to be surprised if she didn't arrive until 11/5. At this point I was feeling contractions but they weren't anything I couldn't handle. Once settled into our room I was hooked up to an IV of fluids and they wanted to start me on Pitocin after breaking my water (the other bag?!)! Matthew was trying to get some sleep but I definitely could not sleep! The contractions definitely picked up after the broke my water and started me on the lowest dose of Pitocin. Around 7 I was starting to wonder why I was in so much pain being only 2 cm. I hadn't been checked in a while but I gave myself a (very) small goal of trying to make it until 7:30 without an epidural. I felt like I was being a baby about the pain since I thought I was still at only 2 cm.

7:30 came around and Matthew convinced me to stop being brave and get the epi. Best advice ever! The anesthesiologist came in at 8:00 - the nurse said that I chose a good time to get the epi because they were about to get very very busy. The administered the medication, I was really nervous for this and my hands were shaking. Luckily my husband was there to hold them! The epi was NOTHING!! I can't believe how nervous I was for it and it didn't hurt a bit. There was a point where I felt a "zap" and jumped a bit. The doctor then said "Oh, you might feel a zing." Felt it. Thanks for the warning ahead of time. That was the most painful part because I wasn't expecting it. They told me that I should be feeling good within 30 minutes but I was feeling really good before they even left the room at 8:10!! It's such a weird feeling trying to swing your legs back up onto the bed and not being able to move them!

At 9 I was checked again and was at 5 cm so we just continued to hang out. Matthew may have slept a bit more, I can't remember. I was texting/emailing friends and family to let them know this is really it! My future sister-in-law Kelsey was working the night before so it was nice to be able to text someone at 4am and have them respond, because I was kind of bored! :o)

A little after 10 I was checked again and they said I was at a 10 and it was time to push! Holy cow, what?!?! Right now? It's time? I began panicking and clicking the button to administer more epidural pain medication. I was still pretty numb, but wanted to push it a few times, just in case!

At about 10:30 I started pushing and I would just like to say that pushing is no joke! I could feel when I needed to push but I wasn't sure if I was doing it right. And it was exhausting. I think I thought that I'd push a few times and baby would pop out, but that's not the case for everyone! My nurse was encouraging though and let me know when I was doing it exactly like she wanted me to. The doctor came in to finish the job and I remember they kept saying that the baby just needed to get under (over, maybe?) the pelvic bone. They said it a lot and I kept thinking, she's still not passed that part? How much longer is this going to take? I was getting sweaty (During labor? That's unheard of!) and light headed and kind of felt like I was going to pass out! I kept thinking if it was too late to go back and get a c-section. I finally asked, if they could give me an estimate of how many more pushes until she was out. They said 4. That was crushing.

I gave 3 really good pushes and the doctor and nurse kept telling me to look down! Look down! I looked down and there was my little girl! She pooped all over me as she was being placed on my stomach but I think I love her more for it. They cleaned her up and put her on my chest and I just remember looking into those beautiful eyes in disbelief that this little girl is what I've been waiting on for 10 months! I kept telling her how pretty she was and how much I loved her and how long I'd been waiting to meet her. Matt and I just kept looking at each other and laughing with tears in our eyes, in shock that we created something so amazing. We are absolutely in love with her and couldn't be happier that she's finally here!

We joked that we thought we might have a baby by dinner time but ended up getting her before breakfast was really over! After about a few hours we were moved into our postpartum room where we stayed until Wednesday around noon.

We've been home for a week now, and while it hasn't been smooth sailing the whole time (I'm having a hard time getting Sadie to latch for feedings) she is well worth every single second. I love snuggling her and kissing her and loving on her all the time!

39 Weeks

39 weeks! 6 days left until my due date, 13 days left until 41 weeks which is when my doctor would schedule an induction! I am thinking there is NO way I'll make it to 41 weeks. Not at this point. I was concerned last week that I'd end up having to be induced at 41+ weeks but I feel like she will be here this week. Fingers and toes are crossed that I'm not wrong about this!

I feel like crap again today. I felt very similar to this last Sunday. Light headed, dizzy, headachy, nauseous. I think that's it. 

How far along? 39w1d
How big is baby? Baby is the size of a watermelon. Again, too big.
Total weight gain? Not sure. 30+ pounds.  
Maternity clothes? Yes!
Stretch marks? I'm noticing a few more on my lower belly. Ugh.
Sleep? Meh, not great. I can't get comfortable anymore. No belly sleeping, no back sleeping, if I sleep on my right side my hip goes numb and it hurts, if I sleep on my left side my back hurts. My husband snores, yet continues to deny it :) 
Best moment this week? I got a lot of cleaning done yesterday! Every Saturday I clean, clean, clean thinking that it might be my last chance to make sure everything is picked up. Then the next Saturday comes and I have to do it all over again!
Miss anything? I miss feeling the way I felt yesterday. I hate feeling "sick."
Movement? Yes, lots of movement at night right before bed. Sometimes throughout the day if I'm paying attention. Sometimes I have small freak outs if I don't feel her moving for a long time, and then I'll immediately feel her just as I'm thinking I should call the doctor. I think she's trying to show me who's boss. I didn't feel her moving ALL morning on Friday at work. It was a super busy/stressful day. I decided that I needed to actually leave the building for lunch which I don't normally do. The moment I sat in my car she started wiggling around. Silly little lady.
Food cravings? Bleh. Nothing sounds good.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Something is making me nauseous. Not sure what it is.
Gender? Baby girl!
Labor signs? Yes! Some things that I won't mention here because no one wants to hear about it. But getting random contractions, nothing that ever stays.
Symptoms? Peeing, back aches, exhaustion!!!
Belly button in, or out? It's flat or out all the time.
Wedding rings on or off? I still have my wedding band on, I really really miss my engagement ring. I can't wait to put it back on without having to risk not being able to get it off again!
Happy or moody most of the time? Happy, still very ready to get this show on the road.
Looking forward to? Meeting our baby! Seeing Matt hold her for the first time. Me getting to hold her for the first time!!! Come on baby girl, we want to meet you!!!! Also super looking forward to maternity leave. I might actually cry over having to go back to work tomorrow.

38 Weeks!

Well my appointments the last 2 weeks weren't anything special. Obviously I was hoping to go in to more progress, but I'm still at what my doctor would call a "1+" and very soft. No updates to effacement the last 2 weeks. My doctor seems to think I'll end up going on my own which is a good thing considering she won't induce until 41 weeks. I will probably have a mental breakdown if I'm pregnant until 41 weeks! It just sounds painful and miserable! :o/ This little girl seems to have her own schedule and although I hoped she'd be here 2 days ago I can't start forcing her to do things she doesn't want to do... yet :) 

I did ask about stripping of the membranes and she said they only do it "depending." She didn't elaborate on the depending thing. She did say she didn't think it would do anything for me right now other than cause me to have false labor contractions!

Matt and I did end up going to L&D last Wednesday (maybe Thursday, I can't remember!!) after I decided that I didn't know if I was leaking fluid or pee. It wasn't either. I'm glad we took the trip though because #1, they say anytime you think you're leaking fluid to get checked out because apparently it's no joke. And also, It was good to have that trial run so I will know what to expect next time when it's really real. Unfortunately Matt was pretty annoying the whole time because he wanted to leave/eat/watch tv. Luckily he has promised to NOT be this way when it's really real. After we saw the doctor they decided that they actually didn't like my BP (too high) so we had to hang around and have my BP monitored some more and had blood drawn for lab work. The labs came back after about an hour and everything was fine so I got up, got dressed and then they immediately came back and decided they wanted to do an ultrasound to check on her fluid levels, which took only about another 5 minutes and were fine.

How far along? 38w2d
How big is baby? Baby is the size of a pumpkin. That's too big if you ask me. 
Total weigh gain? I don't know but if I remember correctly It ended in a 2 last week and ended in a 7 this week. That would equal a 5 pound weight gain in a week and that's something I refuse to believe, especially since food doesn't sound appealing anymore and I basically have to force myself to eat. 
Maternity clothes? Yep, we can be done with them at any time now! :)
Stretch marks? Still slathering on the cocoa butter and bio oil. If she doesn't come soon I'm going to need to buy stock!
Sleep? Meh, it's been ok due to the snoring husband and waking up 6 times to pee!
Best moment this week? Umm... It's pretty early in the week. I can't say anything amazing has happened yet! I stayed up until midnight on Saturday, that's kind of a miracle!
Miss anything? Everything!! I would love a glass or two of wine. I'd love for my hips not to hurt when I'm sleeping! I'd love to not have to pee 8 times a night!!!
Movement? Still getting movement though not a ton. Doctor B says it's fine as long as I've noticed it gradually slowing down, and not slowing down all at once.
Food cravings? Fruit punch. I had some today. It wasn't as delicious as I made it out to be in my pregnant mind.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Yesterday I had a random day of nausea and dizziness. I'm not sure what it was due to, but I feel better today so that's a good thing.
Gender? Baby girl!
Labor signs? BH/not real contractions but ones that are occasionally painful. That seems to be about it!
Symptoms? Peeing 10 times a night, and 20 times during the day! Hip pain, exhaustion with random bursts of energy!
Belly button in, or out? It's flat or out all the time.
Wedding rings on or off? I still have my wedding band on!
Happy or moody most of the time? Happy and anxious. Ready to get this show on the road.
Looking forward to? In no particular order: Watching the Black List tonight! Meeting my daughter some time in the next few weeks!!

38w2d and looking & feeling huge!

37 Weeks!

37 weeks and full term! Wahoo! It's crazy to think that this baby could be here any day! Hopefully sooner rather than later! :)

How far along? 37w1d
How big is baby? Baby is the size of a winter melon according to the bump. This looks similar to a watermelon... but longer. Hmm.
Total weigh gain? I am guessing probably 30-31 pounds. Not counting, don't really care. Is that bad?
Maternity clothes? Always, pretty excited to be able to wear normal clothes again! Who knows how long it'll be before that happens though !
Stretch marks? Still the one above my belly button. I've been slathering on the cocoa butter and that other stuff...Bio Oil. Let's hope it's helping with something? Luckily the What To Expect book says I probably won't get much bigger from here on out.
Sleep? Aside from last night... fine. Have I have told you that I have a husband that snores? Well, I do.
Best moment this week? Even though I had to wait forever at my appointment, I was really excited for it. It was my first internal exam and I found out that I am 1cm dilated and 70% effaced!! I know this doesn't mean much, but it was exciting to find out that my body is on it's way to doing what it's supposed to! Let's hope for more progress at my Tuesday appointment!
Miss anything? I miss being able to move freely pre-pregnancy. Getting out of bed, getting up off the floor... everything was so much easier!
Movement? Yep, not quite as much as before but she's still moving around. Sometimes it feels like she's trying to break out.
Food cravings? Not so far this week. My SIL is amazing and brought some chili over for us after reading my post from last week!
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope
Gender? Baby girl!
Labor signs? Ok, so the contractions I thought I had last week turned out not to be contractions. Maybe braxton hicks, but I have no idea. I definitely felt some BH on Thursday night right before bed, they didn't hurt but I could feel my stomach getting tense. Around 3am Friday morning I woke up to what i think were actual contractions. The WTEWYE book said early labor pains can feel like gastrointestinal pains and that's exactly what these felt like. I thought that maybe I needed to use the bathroom but they would come and go every 10-15 minutes. They never got more intense or closer together and I was able to fall back asleep after about an hour.
Symptoms? Peeing a lot (still), low energy, braxton hicks/contractions, heartburn or indigestion most of the time.
Belly button in, or out? It's flat.
Wedding rings on or off? I still have my wedding band on!
Happy or moody most of the time? Really happy/excited/anxious
Looking forward to? Meeting this baby! Come on Sadie!!!! It is amazing how one minute I can be really excited and feel like I can get through labor and delivery to meet her and then other times I immediately begin panicking about labor. I already plan to get the epidural and I am assuming things will be fine after that, it's just getting to the point where I can get an epidural that kind of scares me. Right now I'm feeling ready to go. I sorta kinda left work on Friday as if I wasn't coming back. Ok so not really, but that was my hope. Tomorrow is going to be hard! I'm excited for my appointment on Tuesday to see if I've made any more progress! This time I need to remember to ask the doc if she has any "guesses" for labor. Everyone asked me about that after my last appointment and I didn't know that was something I should ask her!

3 or less bump pics left! 

I just had to share this picture of my cutie pie