Monday, November 25, 2013

Sadie Marie - 3 Weeks

Today I spent the majority of my day cuddling my sweet Sadie-Bug. I didn't get the laundry done, I didn't do the dishes in the sink. I didn't shower until my husband came home from work. I just held my sweet 3 week old baby - mostly because I can't get enough of her, but also because she was being a fussy buns today :)

I love her squishy lips in this picture

*Sadie enjoys baths in her bathtub - so much better than the sponge-type baths we had to do before.
*She loves to be held up right, if cradling her has her fussing holding her completely vertical will almost always get her to quiet down.
*She loves napping and being rocked in her glider.
*She loves to cluster feed in the evenings - I'm thankful she doesn't do it in the middle of the night!
*She LOVES car rides!

Although the weather is becoming unbearably cold (yes, I said it's unbearably cold and it's not even December), we're going to try to venture out a couple of times a week. I think I'll walk around the mall with her, we need to go to the grocery store, and I have some gift cards that need to be used for no particular reason other than shopping is fun, I also have some crafty projects I want to complete as well - 1 in particular for Sadie's room! 

One of my favorite things to do these days is to watch her sleep. Even though it's just a reflex right now, my heart just melts when I see her smile or giggle in her sleep. It gives me a glimpse of what her smile will be like in a couple of months when she's doing it for real!

I can't believe next week I'll be doing a 1 month post! Sadie has her first holiday this week - Thanksgiving! We have lots of family who still haven't met her and will finally get to meet her on Thursday! We also have her kidney ultrasound next Tuesday. I'm anxious to find out what the outcome is, although with as much as this baby pees, I can't imagine it'll be anything other than a passing grade :)

Must Have Monday

Today I'm linking up with Lindsey over at the Crafty Practitioner blog for Must Have Monday:

The Crafty Practitioner 
Here are my current must haves: 

I must have these burgundy shoes. Sadly I cannot locate them on the H&M website! 
This 55-300mm zoom lens is on my Amazon Wish List. We'll see if my husband notices :) 

A girl at work turned me on to this Blistex Revive & Restore balm. I just purchased my own from Amazon! 

I want this Northface Crescent Sunset Hoodie because it looks so comfy! This is also on my Amazon wish list ;) 
This cute watch it from VintageLovers2012 Etsy shop and could very well be my Christmas gift to myself! 


Friday, November 22, 2013

Silly First Time Mom Stuff

Sadie got her first 2 pieces of mail today :o) one was for her ultrasound appointment confirmation, and one was her social security card. I have been sitting here for the last 20 minutes practicing writing her name in cursive so it looks good when I sign it! She's going to have this thing until she gets married and changes her name, it needs to look good!

Matthew took Sadie out to dinner with his family (I stayed home - not feeling great). I may have teared up a bit after they left. I miss my girl (and my husband).

I'm watching Say Yes To The Dress because Friday is Bride Day. I'm totally excited for when Sadie wants to watch these shows with me!

While breastfeeding was incredibly difficult (this deserves a post of its own) after we got home from the hospital, I'm so glad I didn't give up on it. I love nursing that sweet little girl - even at 3am.

Sadie sometimes giggles in her sleep. It's the cutest thing ever. 

I leave you with this. I love that little face!!! 

Monday, November 18, 2013

Time flies

How is my sweet girl already 2 weeks old?! I don't understand how time could possibly be going so fast! Although we don't do much during the day, the hours fly by and now the days and weeks are too. :o(

Sadie is 2 weeks old today and I fall more in love every minute I spend with her. I love her sweet little face and I can't stop kissing those soft little cheeks!!

Little Miss likes sleeping on daddy's chest in the recliner and listening to him play the piano (we can't wait for him to learn more kid songs)! She loves sleeping with her hands over her face and going for car rides. She's never phased by loud noises like someone knocking on the door, Teddy's bark, or the hair dryer- but sometimes startles when she makes noises while sucking on her hands :) She likes being rocked in the glider. Although she's not a fan of her sponge baths she absolutely loves having her hair washed (just like mommy)! She very rarely cries and we can pretty easily figure out what's wrong if she is crying.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Sadie's 1 Week Picture!

I technically should have posted this on Monday, but since I hadn't posted her birth story yet I figured I should probably wait!

We may have to change some things around for her weekly/monthly pictures because I'm not sure I love this. I mean she obviously makes the picture but I don't know about the chalkboard. I had originally thought I would do this upstairs in her glider but I was in a hurry so I thought this will have to do for Monday's picture!

Here's another picture I just can't resist sharing right now.

I love how she's sleeping with her arms above her head.

And of course, I can't stop sharing pics of the poodle.

After a much needed hair cut! <3

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

So, there's this...

My sweet Sadie Marie arrived on Monday November 4th, 2013 at 11:38 am. She weighed in at 7 pounds 12 ounces of pure perfection. I can't even tell you how in love I am with this girl. How could something I created ever be so perfect?!

Sadie's Birth Story:

On Sunday 11/3 we went to my sister-in-law's house for a birthday dinner honoring my brother-in-law. I felt kind of weird all day. Similar to how I was feeling the previous Sunday when I was nauseous and dizzy off and on all day. By dinner time I was feeling fine though and we had a great time with our family! We got home and rolled into bed (literally). I, being 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant, was up and down many times to use the bathroom as always. I got up probably just a few minutes before 2am Monday morning to use the bathroom, came back to bed, laid down feeling very slight cramps. A few minutes later I felt like I was having stomach cramps that would indicate another trip to the bathroom was coming. I got up, grabbed my phone and headed back to the bathroom.

Once in the bathroom I immediately started bleeding. Panicking, I called for my husband who was snoring away in the bedroom, not hearing me yell for him!! I obviously had to take matters into my own hands so I called the doctor's office, left a message and waited for my call back. In the mean time I was debating who I could call/text about this issue because although I wasn't having contractions, I was pretty sure that red blood that late in pregnancy just wasn't good.

I finally was able to yell loud enough to my husband that I was thinking it was baby time. He said, "What? Now?" Yes! Now!! I got a call  back from the on call doctor and explained to her that I was bleeding red blood and that I wasn't sure why. She basically told me that she didn't really care what color it was (haha) and that we needed to come into L&D, now! I got dressed, made sure Matthew was fully awake, he got dressed, and then asked, "Should I put my contacts in?" Umm. I don't really care, just hurry and make a decision so we can leave! I texted my mom because we were supposed to take Teddy over to her house when the time came. She didn't want us to bring him over so late so we had to leave him at home. That broke my heart. He's never been home alone during the night before.

We grabbed our bags, grabbed the car seat and headed out the door. I feel like it took forever to get to the hospital. From the time I got the call back from the on call at 2:14 until the time we got to triage in L&D 45 minutes had passed! When we got into a triage room our nurse informed us that this was probably nothing, it was probably just my "bloody show" and that some women bleed more than others during that time frame. I was thinking she was crazy because she didn't actually see how much blood there was. We were kind of bummed that she was saying this probably wasn't it.

We waited for the doctor who came in rather quickly and performed her exam. She said I was at a 2cm and she wanted to check to make sure my water didn't break. She also mentioned that some women can have several bags of water and that one of them may have been broken just based on what she was seeing. I had no idea you could have more than one bag of fluid. She said that even if one of the bags broke we'd be staying because the risk for infection still goes up, even if the bag that broke isn't the one containing the baby (or something like that). She left and came back about 2 minutes later and said we're staying!! Oh my gosh, we're really having a baby!?!

They got us into a L&D room and said that there's a chance we'd have a baby by dinner time, but because I was only at 2cm, not to be surprised if she didn't arrive until 11/5. At this point I was feeling contractions but they weren't anything I couldn't handle. Once settled into our room I was hooked up to an IV of fluids and they wanted to start me on Pitocin after breaking my water (the other bag?!)! Matthew was trying to get some sleep but I definitely could not sleep! The contractions definitely picked up after the broke my water and started me on the lowest dose of Pitocin. Around 7 I was starting to wonder why I was in so much pain being only 2 cm. I hadn't been checked in a while but I gave myself a (very) small goal of trying to make it until 7:30 without an epidural. I felt like I was being a baby about the pain since I thought I was still at only 2 cm.

7:30 came around and Matthew convinced me to stop being brave and get the epi. Best advice ever! The anesthesiologist came in at 8:00 - the nurse said that I chose a good time to get the epi because they were about to get very very busy. The administered the medication, I was really nervous for this and my hands were shaking. Luckily my husband was there to hold them! The epi was NOTHING!! I can't believe how nervous I was for it and it didn't hurt a bit. There was a point where I felt a "zap" and jumped a bit. The doctor then said "Oh, you might feel a zing." Felt it. Thanks for the warning ahead of time. That was the most painful part because I wasn't expecting it. They told me that I should be feeling good within 30 minutes but I was feeling really good before they even left the room at 8:10!! It's such a weird feeling trying to swing your legs back up onto the bed and not being able to move them!

At 9 I was checked again and was at 5 cm so we just continued to hang out. Matthew may have slept a bit more, I can't remember. I was texting/emailing friends and family to let them know this is really it! My future sister-in-law Kelsey was working the night before so it was nice to be able to text someone at 4am and have them respond, because I was kind of bored! :o)

A little after 10 I was checked again and they said I was at a 10 and it was time to push! Holy cow, what?!?! Right now? It's time? I began panicking and clicking the button to administer more epidural pain medication. I was still pretty numb, but wanted to push it a few times, just in case!

At about 10:30 I started pushing and I would just like to say that pushing is no joke! I could feel when I needed to push but I wasn't sure if I was doing it right. And it was exhausting. I think I thought that I'd push a few times and baby would pop out, but that's not the case for everyone! My nurse was encouraging though and let me know when I was doing it exactly like she wanted me to. The doctor came in to finish the job and I remember they kept saying that the baby just needed to get under (over, maybe?) the pelvic bone. They said it a lot and I kept thinking, she's still not passed that part? How much longer is this going to take? I was getting sweaty (During labor? That's unheard of!) and light headed and kind of felt like I was going to pass out! I kept thinking if it was too late to go back and get a c-section. I finally asked, if they could give me an estimate of how many more pushes until she was out. They said 4. That was crushing.

I gave 3 really good pushes and the doctor and nurse kept telling me to look down! Look down! I looked down and there was my little girl! She pooped all over me as she was being placed on my stomach but I think I love her more for it. They cleaned her up and put her on my chest and I just remember looking into those beautiful eyes in disbelief that this little girl is what I've been waiting on for 10 months! I kept telling her how pretty she was and how much I loved her and how long I'd been waiting to meet her. Matt and I just kept looking at each other and laughing with tears in our eyes, in shock that we created something so amazing. We are absolutely in love with her and couldn't be happier that she's finally here!

We joked that we thought we might have a baby by dinner time but ended up getting her before breakfast was really over! After about a few hours we were moved into our postpartum room where we stayed until Wednesday around noon.

We've been home for a week now, and while it hasn't been smooth sailing the whole time (I'm having a hard time getting Sadie to latch for feedings) she is well worth every single second. I love snuggling her and kissing her and loving on her all the time!

Sunday, November 3, 2013

39 Weeks

39 weeks! 6 days left until my due date, 13 days left until 41 weeks which is when my doctor would schedule an induction! I am thinking there is NO way I'll make it to 41 weeks. Not at this point. I was concerned last week that I'd end up having to be induced at 41+ weeks but I feel like she will be here this week. Fingers and toes are crossed that I'm not wrong about this!

I feel like crap again today. I felt very similar to this last Sunday. Light headed, dizzy, headachy, nauseous. I think that's it. 

How far along? 39w1d
How big is baby? Baby is the size of a watermelon. Again, too big.
Total weight gain? Not sure. 30+ pounds.  
Maternity clothes? Yes!
Stretch marks? I'm noticing a few more on my lower belly. Ugh.
Sleep? Meh, not great. I can't get comfortable anymore. No belly sleeping, no back sleeping, if I sleep on my right side my hip goes numb and it hurts, if I sleep on my left side my back hurts. My husband snores, yet continues to deny it :) 
Best moment this week? I got a lot of cleaning done yesterday! Every Saturday I clean, clean, clean thinking that it might be my last chance to make sure everything is picked up. Then the next Saturday comes and I have to do it all over again!
Miss anything? I miss feeling the way I felt yesterday. I hate feeling "sick."
Movement? Yes, lots of movement at night right before bed. Sometimes throughout the day if I'm paying attention. Sometimes I have small freak outs if I don't feel her moving for a long time, and then I'll immediately feel her just as I'm thinking I should call the doctor. I think she's trying to show me who's boss. I didn't feel her moving ALL morning on Friday at work. It was a super busy/stressful day. I decided that I needed to actually leave the building for lunch which I don't normally do. The moment I sat in my car she started wiggling around. Silly little lady.
Food cravings? Bleh. Nothing sounds good.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Something is making me nauseous. Not sure what it is.
Gender? Baby girl!
Labor signs? Yes! Some things that I won't mention here because no one wants to hear about it. But getting random contractions, nothing that ever stays.
Symptoms? Peeing, back aches, exhaustion!!!
Belly button in, or out? It's flat or out all the time.
Wedding rings on or off? I still have my wedding band on, I really really miss my engagement ring. I can't wait to put it back on without having to risk not being able to get it off again!
Happy or moody most of the time? Happy, still very ready to get this show on the road.
Looking forward to? Meeting our baby! Seeing Matt hold her for the first time. Me getting to hold her for the first time!!! Come on baby girl, we want to meet you!!!! Also super looking forward to maternity leave. I might actually cry over having to go back to work tomorrow.